I had an epiphany last night. And yes, I know that we are on the cusp of Advent not Epiphany. But, in the midst of talking to my mom on the phone last night about some recent feedback from an evaluation and my overall tiredness lately, I began to realize some of the habits or rhythms that I’ve been unconsciously leaving out.
I’ve generally been really good about reading the Upper Room daily devotional that gets sent to my email box in the morning. I’ve also generally been okay at reading other religious/devotional/pastoral/thought-provoking materials or at the very least reading along with several small groups at Wesley so that I’m getting fed spiritually. It took me until last night to realize, oh yeah, you haven’t even signed up for the Upper Room on your new email address. I’ve been at this new job for close to five months and I’m just now realizing that I completely blanked on signing up for my daily devotional to be sent to my new inbox.
That’s pretty telling.
And I honestly didn’t even realize it. It didn’t cross my mind until last night.
As we start new jobs, new projects, new paths and as we enter into a season that often looks a lot more like Black Friday with the rush, bustle, mayhem, and angst than the arrival of our Savior into the world, may we remember, may we know, may we connect, may we take time to explore this Advent season anew and afresh.
May God open our eyes to some of our disconnect. May we realize when we’re drawing from the Source or when we’re just running on fumes. May we see and know and feel God’s rhythm in our bones as we go about our day to day resting in God’s love, strength, patience and wisdom and not our own will, arrogance, or seeming energy.
I am grateful for a God who loves me even when I’m spinning my wheels. I am grateful for the Spirit who leads and guides and gives us the nudges and awakening when we need it. I am grateful for the inspiration of Christ to show us how we are to live, bringing God’s kingdom to earth.
Just a couple things that have been speaking to me this morning:
This morning’s Upper Room Devotional: http://devotional.upperroom.org/devotionals/2012-11-30 – Very appropriately asking “Am I walking in the Lord’s light, and am I projecting that light into the world?”
Three songs that have stood out this morning – Brandon Heath’s “You Are My King,” Group 1 Crew’s “His Kind of Love,” and TobyMac’s “Get Back Up.”