We left two magazines at the store, they’re part of my ritual of self-care, so I went back to pick them up. Mike had just gotten back from fixing a bass pedal and he asked how I was. My heart is cloudy and rainy like the sky in Summerville this afternoon and as I listened to Needtobreathe’s Difference Maker from their Wastelands album. The jumbled thoughts from the Judicial Council decision and our divisive political climate where weighing heavy on me. As I preach Children’s Sabbath on Sunday, I’m struck by the theme “Walk by Faith.” I didn’t know who to call, to express my grief, looking for hope, so I began talking to Jesus, as the tears began to fall.
I wish there weren’t “winners” and “losers.” I wish we didn’t demonize the “other” side. I wish we could listen and not be planning our counter-attack in our head. I know, love and respect some clergy that will leave the UMC if the Traditional plan passes at General Conference and I know, love and respect some that will leave if the One Church Plan passes at General Conference, not to mention the people in the pew. I also know, that God will still be God, and some of my blog readers and most of my friends don’t much care what happens in our denomination. (smile) But earlier, I turned on the news…….I have no words, much less for an explanation for my 9 and 11 year old who are full of questions.
As I was mulling these things over in the car I realized, I need to “Walk by Faith.” I don’t know how to navigate the denomination divide/political climate/interpersonal relationships with all kinds of the land mines out there! But I know Who makes crooked lines straight. I know someone that says He’s the way, the truth and the life. I know that I will ask the Holy Spirit to guide and lead me in the coming months of navigation. The Devil is alive, y’all. Evil is real. He seeks to disrupt. He seeks to divide. And isn’t he having a field day in our lives today??!! Progressive. Conservative. Moderate. Libertarian. Liberal. Evangelical. Democrat. Anarchist. Republican. And everyone in between.
We all need Jesus.
I need thee, O I need thee, every hour I need thee; O bless me now, my Savior, I come to thee.
We all need hope. We all need the light. We all need to seek the good in the world. We all need Jesus. When the world is at it’s darkest, when all hope seems lost, we TRUST and MOVE and have our very BEING in the One who commands even the wind and the waves with a Word.
My prayer as we continue to be bombarded by all sorts of “stuff” is that we rest on the Almighty love and grace of God. We trust Jesus to shield us and He seeks to work all things for our good. Remembering as we go on the twists and turns of this journey who we are and Whose we are. Holy Spirit come down and heal our hearts. Give us the ears to listen and the words to speak. Give us your boldness to speak up. Blow peace where you will, igniting, uniting, and sometimes dividing when we do more harm than good. Give us your wisdom and discernment and shine your all-encompassing light on every thought and situation. Help us to seek to be followers of Jesus who walk in the way that leads to life. We walk by faith, not be sight. Please give us Your vision for Your kingdom come. Amen.